So lonely

Best. Song. Ever.

And also how I've been feeling. The particular predicament of our family leaves me feeling constantly isolated. I see people at school getting together so casually, constant playdates, the easy rapport between parents, and I want to cry. The little one has so many therapies and appointments which keep us on a tighter schedule than others. It breaks my heart that I'm not providing the big girl more social opportunities. It's triage- attending to the most serious issue at all times. I try to balance it out, but I'm failing every day.

The upside to this isolation is that my kids are doing so amazingly great that I also feel isolated from people who are going through a lot with their kids. I don't want to complain about how hard it is for us, when we have friends with kids who have serious challenges.

Having friends over for the first time in ages on Saturday was definitely soul- refreshing. And R's return after 5 days away is exactly what I need. He is such a wonderful partner, fantastic daddy- a GOOD MAN. He is hard working, creative, a good listener, amazing cook, attentive husband... And one of the most awesome people I know.

I know, gag me, right? After 10 years I'm not supposed to still appreciate and adore him so. But what's not to like? I can accept that listing off the patently awesome people in my life- kids, husband, friends- is probably pretty boring for the 3 people who are reading this. Sorry, suckas. They may be obvious, but they are obviously AWESOME!!! In a couple of weeks it'll really get interesting...